How I feel at the moment

Meh!
Another morning wasted.
Rejected for a procedure yet again.
Really pissed off.
Infected web sites
I just wrote a long post about my health woes.
It came across as self pitying.
I binned it.
Okay, my health has been on a rapid decline over the last few weeks but that is boring news [except maybe for me?] but I have noticed another phenomenon. As the physical declines so does the mental.
I have mentioned before about this compulsion I have to scribble something each day. Normally this wasn’t a problem. I would find a topic and would then do a mental draft. But lately as soon as I try drafting something the brain instantly turns to sludge. It’s worse than writer’s block as the thoughts are there but they are so mixed up and confusing that I couldn’t possibly make any sense of them.
Take for example the edifying spectacle last Friday of the Attack Dogs savaging poor Zelenskyy. This would be pure gold-dust for material but sadly I had to let it pass. My thoughts were too confused. I did have opinions all right but putting those opinions into some sort of legibility was impossible. Sludge. Mental Porridge.
Even now, I’m not sure where I am going with this. My thought process is on a totally different track from when I started.
I don’t know what impact this will happen to poor Rambles.
Can a web site contract cancer?
How to watch the Oscars
The above appeared on the BBC website so the advice must be of sufficient import to bear repeating.
I realise that modern generations are finding life increasingly difficult so any little bit of advice I give may be welcome. I’m sorry I don’t have a YouTube video which is the normal means by which any modern person learns how to boil a kettle of any other difficult domestic chore. By any yardstick, learning how to watch the Oxcars is vastly more complex.
So, sans YouTube, this is how you watch the Oscars.
First of all you have to find a yoke called a television. This will probably be in your sitting room which is the room you don’t sleep in or possibly eat in. It will probably be in a corner and looks like a black sheet of glass. It is controlled by a thing called a Remote. The latter will probably be found stuck down behind a cushion somewhere. I;m sorry but if you can’t find it then I am of no further help. Don’t worry – half the televisions on the planet are incapacitated due to a lost Remote so it’s no reflection on yourself.
Assuming you have fond the Remote the next step is to switch on the television. This should turn the black glass thing into a shiny colourful picture.
The next part of the process is quite simple. You just find a piece of text that says The Oscars, or something similar. You may have to wait until The Oscars are actually broadcast but that’s part of the fun. YouTube may be able to help at this stage.
So here it comes…..
How to actually watch……
Sit on a comfortable seat [or stand if you really want to] and look at the television.
That’s it. That is really all there is to it. You are now actually watching the Oscars.
It’s easy when you know how?
Reputation
There is a piece on the BBC news site today.
Minister resigns over cuts to overseas aid, saying UK’s reputation will be deeply harmed
The actual resignation mentioned is of little interest to me [and probably to the vast majority of UK citizens]. They come, they go and the world carries on.
What interested me is the concept of “reputation”. It got me thinking. What is its significance? What does it even mean?
The implication is of course that hundreds of millions of Europeans will be horrified by the move and will spend their entire waking lives saying what a load of mean-fisted bastards the Brits are. I think this is rather unlikely and I would imagine that anyone who reads the item will shrug and move on to something more important [“Residents advised to buy earplugs as lighthouse fog alarm malfunctions“? Heh!]. Even supposing the entire population is horrified by the UK’s move then so what? I would wager my entire estate that not one Englishman [and the others] will be accosted over this.
Maybe she’s talking about reputation amongst other gubmints? Again, I would ask so fucking what? Sticks and stones may break your bones but words…. ?
Maybe it’s a reputation amongst Brits? This actually brings me to another point. How many tax payers have a burning desire to send a portion of their earnings to foreign aid and have explicitly told their gubmint to allocate a chunk to support dictatorships and corrupt officials? Is there a little tick-box on tax return forms? I don’t think so.
Countries like Iraq and Afghanistan have reputations for being medieval hell holes and that is probably well deserved. I will avoid those places.
Britain has a reputation for being mean with foreign aid?
So fucking what?