I made a New Years Resolution back in the sixties.
I resolved to never make another New Years Resolution.
I have kept to it religiously over the years. I have never resolved to do anything or for that matter, never resolved not to do anything in the years since. I feel good about that. I feel a sense of achievement having kept a resolution for fifty of so years?
For a moment today I nearly forgot myself and I very nearly made a resolution for the coming year. However I checked myself in time and made a decision instead. I have decided that this here site has to take a drop in my list of priorities.
Though you may not think it, I have quite a few things going on in my life. One of them is The Book which I have been not writing for God knows how many years. It has been through several false starts and even more abandonments. However I have a feeling in my water that I'm on the right track at last.
Why bother, you ask? It's not as if it is ever going to be published after all? So why waste time writing a hundred thousand words that no one will ever read? The simple answer is that it's The Itch. I have this itch at the back of my head all the time that The Book hasn't been written. The Itch wants me to write it and frankly I don't think anything will appease The Itch until I sit down and write the fucking thing.
So am going to spend more time writing a useless novel that no one will ever read and something has to make way for that. I'm not going to abandon this site, have no fear. But I am going to take things a little easier on the old Interweb. Maybe post every second day? Or a couple of times a week? The big problem is that daily writing here takes up so much time. It's a mental deadline where I have to find a topic and then write about it. So from now on, I will no longer search for topics – I'll wait for them to find me.
I know I have said all this before but this time is different. I hope. I won't say I have resolved [see the start of this ramble] but I will say I am determined.
Happy New Year everyone and don't make any resolutions you won't keep.